What Would You Tell Your Twenty Year Old Self?

My brother Michael and me, 1982

What would I tell my 20 year old self? Oh my goodness, where to begin.

The problem would be getting her to listen to me, because she didn’t like to hear any advice or criticism. She was very sensitive, that girl. At 20, she was a confusing mix of arrogance and anxiety. Up until very recently she’d been a lot of fun, but something had been lost – though she’ll get it back.  She clung to her boyfriend for dear life, not sure how she would fare in the world without him. She had a very distorted view of things. *Maybe* it was because her parents were going through a divorce at the time – so cut her a little slack. She felt sad for her mother, angry at and yet needing her father.

 

So to start…

 

Break up with that boy! He’ll be your first husband and it won’t be pretty.

And listen – stop being so AFRAID of everything. You don’t have to follow the path forward – take a few detours. Take a few risks! Take a semester off of school and travel! I know money is tight, but if you ask the right people you might get some help with that. Or maybe not. So take out a student loan! DO something! Because I can tell you this from 30 years into the future, the only thing you’ll truly regret is not seeing more of the world while you were still young. THAT was a big mistake.

Next thing? Take better care of yourself. I know you hate exercising, but if you start now, at 20, it will become a part of your routine, and then when you’re 50, you’ll be healthier and you’ll feel better. You may not care about being 50 now, 20 year old self, but you should. This was one thing your father was right about.

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My parents and me, 1982

Pay attention in class. Better yet, GO to class. Don’t be so lazy. You were always capable of doing better in school. You never really tried very hard. Try harder. Do better.  Push yourself. Anyone can get B’s and C’s. You should be getting A’s. I know you don’t love school – you’ve always been more of an independent learner – but a little effort would go a long way. And trying hard in classes OTHER than your writing classes is important.

I know at 20 it was hard for you to look to the future – you had enough to deal with just getting through each semester. But think about what might happen – think about having choices and options. Maybe you’ll want to go to graduate school someday. Who knows? It’s not just about finding a man to love you (refer back to the boyfriend advice above). Eventually you’ll understand this, but sooner would be better than later.

Look at yourself with a positive eye. Don’t only see flaws. See what’s good about you, about your face and your body. Don’t let the critical voices of your childhood make you feel bad about yourself. Don’t get wrapped up in what’s wrong and miss what’s right.  I know this is difficult – not just for you, but for most 20 year old girls. Please, try to see yourself as I see you, 30 years later. Even if it’s just for a few minutes. You’ll be amazed. 

Finally, and most important, have patience. You are so impatient (some things never change). Don’t rush into things, worried nothing else will work out. Don’t assume that your life will forever be in upheaval, as it was sometimes when you were growing up. Slow down, enjoy being young, relax. It’s all going to be ok, in fact it’s going to be pretty great. Really.

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    • says

      I’m so glad my daughter (and hopefully my son) had the experience of a semester abroad. Once adulthood begins, it’s nearly impossible to find the time and/or money to do something as exciting as that.

    • says

      Robin, I had never been to Europe until February of 2011 when I went to visit my daughter during her semester abroad. It felt like such a huge loss to me to have missed out on seeing the world as a young woman. When we left Paris I cried for hours.

  1. says

    Loved the post, and the comments. When I look out at the girls in my community college classes, I sometimes wish I could tell them some of these very same things. They are so lovely, and they don’t know it, and wouldn’t believe me if I told them.
    I liked the comment about wondering what our 70 year old selves would say to us–now there’s additional food for thought. We’ll never be younger than we are right now.
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  2. says

    Love your post, Sharon! So many of the things you would tell 20-year-old Sharon are things I would tell 20-year-old Marci. I could have written a book with this post…I also wish I would have traveled more when I was younger. And I hate exercising, too! Always have. What a beauty 20-year-old Sharon was! And what a beauty 50-hm-hm-hm-hm-year old Sharon is today. So glad we met at BlogHer; so glad to be getting to know you better through your blog.
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  3. says

    Go to class? (I was the opposite. Quintessential nerd. You couldn’t keep me away or my nose out of the books. I needed a bit more party animal!)

    I find it fascinating (and sad) how consistent certain themes arise. Body image is one of them. How many of us look back and see our bodies more clearly now – realizing they may not have been Twiggy-thin or whatever other shape we thought they should have – but they were healthy, strong, attractive – absolutely fine!!

    And young women, still, are suffering in this same way, only now they take to cosmetic surgery at terrible cost ($$ and what else?) – and it only seems to me to worsen, rather than improve.

    How do we change that?
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    • says

      I think it’s changing, to a degree – there is so much more variety in what is considered beautiful now – ethnicity, size, you name it. Hopefully this will spill over into young women’s self-acceptance.

  4. says

    Being afraid of everything? Oh, yeah. My 20-year-old self was so that way, too. Your photos are beautiful! I love your comment on exercise. I too could have used that advice. *Still* should use that. Great post.

  5. says

    We would have totally connected back then! Certainly now. Perspective is what we didn’t have then, and we aren’t supposed to have perspective at 20. We had to walk through the fire to get to this fabulous place we are now. Hugs, hugs.

  6. says

    I totally understand why a girl that age would look to a boy/man for love, comfort, and validation when she wasn’t feeling very secure about things at home. I understand because I was that girl too. No matter how often my mom told me how “wonderful” and “strong” I was, I could care less about what she was saying. I am so envious that you were a photo-taking family. Even though my photos are in storage, the majority of the ones that are actually there are probably over-exposed or off-center or non-existent.
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  7. says

    Love the pictures, Sharon, and love the writing. Your wisdom, while lost on your twenty year self, is coming in real handy for your YA kids, I bet! I agree with you on the advice to give your self to travel and to exercise – those are some of the same wishes I would send back in time to me, if I could.
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  8. says

    I was always afraid but masked that fear. I didn’t try as many things as I might have because of it, but no one thought I was afraid. Patience is something I’m still trying to learn. Thanks Sharon.

  9. Carrie says

    Oh, Sharon. You should have talked to me, also. First boyfriend led to first husband, led to abuse, and all because I was too afraid to do it on my own!!! I should have traveled, I should have 1,000 things. Life turned out good, after all. I was single for six years after my divorce, did college, did a ton of therapy, and when I no longer cared about being with a man, I found the perfect one. I am proud of myself for leaving my abuser the first time, and for staying gone. And maybe I’ll get to travel the world after the kids are grown. But I just can’t help but think that it’s human nature to have to see, feel, touch, experience bad decisions for yourself, because I don’t see the next generation listening with any more interest than mine did!

  10. says

    Knowing how accomplished you are today, I’m actually surprised that you weren’t a good student, Sharon. Seems to me that, while in retrospect you would do things differently, what you did led you to a pretty great life. My advice to my 20 year old self would be endless, but like you, I never would have listened. That old adage, Youth is wasted on the young is very true.
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